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Dear Journal, I must try harder, my revision seems to be swimming in mindless circles... My art is lagging in a lax with no new feats... I cannot even step outside the house without the cold wind ushering me back in to my solitude. I feel so alone in the world, I know there are those out there which will claim otherwise, but what are their actions now? To ignore and isolate me... I feel like I have on face, my laughter is a moment of manic...facade. Before pressing back in to the darkness, for no one seems to understand me, even my greatest friend has desolated me while I hold an anchor of loneliness. Sorry, I promise these Journal entries s

Dear Journal, I have an interview today for part-time/summer work the only thing is that one of my best friends applied for the same job. If I get it an he doesn't it will be disheartening for him and he needs the work more than me, I saved up my money whilst work my previous job and can fall back on that whereas he inherited twice the amount of my savings and blew it away on booze and food. What should I do? Matters at home got considerably worse last night, my Dad rang since he had found a letter stating a university-not my first choice would not take me unless I attended a Portfolio review.. This drove him in to a panic after a hard day d

Dear Journal, I am beginning to get increasingly frustrated by my looming exams, however this morning I bought my Dad his father's day gifts which consisted of a torch and a thermal coffee cup... what a mediocre life I lead. All my once friends constantly seem to be preoccupied and the only thing that gets me through the day is the drone of media to vaguely awaken my spirits. How I miss to feel at home somewhere, I feel like an unwanted Christmas present being passed from one relative to the next. Recently it was my Mum's birthday, what a long day... full of empty promises and reminding me of her consistent absence in my life, Dad still reme